Saturday, January 30, 2010

How Do you hold on to an Angel?

I heard from my mom that my Grandma Robinson posted a couple letters from my cousin Dusty(which is the father of Colette Eliza Chadwick that was born on January 24, 2010 and Died January 24, 2010) and my Uncle Roy(the Grandfather and my Grandma's Brother). So amazing and heart warming! I Loved them like crazy! It helped me feel more of what the whole family is feeling especially Julia(Uncle Roy's Daughter), Dusty and their family.

you don’t hold an angel—an angel holds on to you!

Monday, January 25, 2010

Sad Day... to a fun evening

So this morning, I got to work and I find out about one of my cousins sad News! :( She had a baby yesterday, and the baby went back to Heavenly Father just a few hours after Birth. So My Heart and Prayers go out to her and her family! And totally grateful for the Gospel knowing that we'll be reunited with her someday! :D


Work, was very Busy! It was crazy! Not surprising with it being a Monday, and here in Utah everybody waits till monday to see a Doctor. So the Doctors Offices are busy as well as the Pharmacy!

After Work, I was thinking about my cousin, and then my thoughts diverted to adoption, what if a situation like that happend to a girl placing for Adoption? She has chosen Loving parents to Love and raise her child as if that baby was their own, and on the day of the birth, the baby is either Stillborn or has complications and doesn't live to tell the tale... I know a lot of healing would come from it on Both the Birth Mom, and the Adoptive Mother. My questions are, Does the signing of relinquishment forms go on. and then the adoptive parents sign the Death Certificate? Or is it the Birth Parents that sign both the Birth and Death Certificates? What happens in that type of situation? I don't know my thoughts just diverted to that, and now I would really like to know... I know it would be tough, and I know I can't even relate to having a miscarriage or even a child's Death... but is there anybody that knows?


Anyways, I went to FHE today with my ward and my group went down to Springville to have dinner and have some fun! We had some yummy stew(I'm not much of soup person and yes! I was a big girl and ate my dinner! ;) Anyways, after the dinner and lesson, we played a game, and this was interesting it was a progressive story type deal, but you couldn't see the sentences before just the last sentence, and you had to write one sentence based on the sentence from the last person you got the paper from and you couldn't see the sentences before... Oh man! There were some random stories! ;)And very quite funny! haha! Tonight was very fun! :D I Love my Ward! :D


On the way home from FHE! I found out that a girl in my ward(that also knows my youngest Aunt) She was born in Wisconsin also and lived there for 2 years. But lived about a half hour away from Milwaukee(sp?) And I was born in Menomonie, Wisconsin which is closer to the Michigan border... My family lived there for a total of 2 years, and I lived there the first 14 months of my life! It was a funny coincidence! ;) And also, the person that I rode with found out that I grew up in Lehi. And he asked how I said "Goodbye" on the phone... So I actually thought about it... and I say it like this... "Ok, Talk to you later, mmmm... bye" And he was like yep! it's a Lehi thing! And I totally just laughed! How on earth did I get that? haha! It's so funny! Is it really a Lehi thing? Who else does it? If you lived in Lehi for a bit... or even grew up in Lehi? Do you say what I say? the "Mmmmm... Bye!" Or do you say it differently? I'm totally curious... LOL

Friday, January 22, 2010

A little Down... and my sisters

So, this week has felt like such a Drag! :P Part of it is because Kevin and I broke up to date around and have "Experience" with other people, because I am too young to think about Marriage, and need to see what other Guys are like... Kevin and I aren't too fond of the fact, and he suggested to try dating around again... and he has intrests in a girl for him to ask out on a date, and I went on one this morning(in a later post...) and we have some personal spiritual goals that we want to accomplish! :D and this is pretty much the safe and mature way to do it. We are both content with it, and taking it rather Calmly(as our Dear Friend and Institute Teacher Brother Teacher tells Kevin). Brother Peterson mentioned that we are very calm with the whole idea, and that he usually sees drama going on, but we haven't had hardly any drama. Which is pretty good! I try to avoid conflict, Drama of any kind, I'm a Peacemaker and I hate having that kind of stress of arguments and Drama... :P Besides Drama is surrounding me with my family and some at Work... but I don't want to get into that on the Blog. I hate Drama, and wish it didn't exsist! Any ways, I've just been feeling a little lonely lately but that can be because I haven't read my Personal reading in my Scriptures and Prayer(of which I have struggled with all my life anyways, but I try to do my best to do that of which I am commanded to do! ;) and also my personal Journal Writing. I haven't kept up on it as I should with the end of 2009 came around, and now it's the new year, I can keep up with it a little better... ;)



This is me and my sister Abbie on Kendra's 5th Birthday! :D

Ok Today at work my Dad came in to pick up a prescription... and Abbie came along as well! It totally made my day cause my week hasn't been easy this week... and it has felt like a drag and I want next week to be so much better! Luckily I have Home teachers coming over on Sunday! And I look over to Tuesday cause that is where I'll be going to Institute class that mine and Kevin's favorite teacher (Brother Peterson). He is a dear friend of ours. He introduced us when we first met. And also, Brother Peterson is such a good listener, he gives so great insight of what we need to do in our personal lives! I Love him like another dad! Just like I would say about Coach Meyring! I can talk about both of those men for hours of how much they have impacted my lives! :D Anyways, Abbie runs into my arms and Says "TASHA!" And I take her behind the counter to ring my Dad out! And one of the people I work with that comes every now and then to work on rotation as well as getting paid as a pharmacy Intern like my Cousin Sean. She was looking at me so confused! It was so funny! Sean notices her confusion, and tells her that Abbie is my Sister, my dad over hears and looks at her and confirms it to her! I look at her, and she says good, cause I didn't remember her mentioning a Kid! haha! I laughed like crazy! And turned bright red! I haven't had someone ask me if my sisters were my Daughters for a couple years... It's just interesting to me how people just think that as the first impression... I want to be a Mother someday Yes! But right now, no, my sisters have in a sense been training me to become a mother(a Mother-in-Training), when they aren't exactly intentionally doing it. I baby sat them pretty much every single day since they were about 3-6 weeks old(kendra about 3 months or something of watching her by myself, because she was like the first baby I ever took care of really...). I Love how innocent their Minds are! My Mom's Blog has remarks that my Sister Kendra has said... and some just make you laugh your head off, and others make you think a bit. It's truly amazing! And I Love it! I just Love My sisters so so much! I look up to them because they are that way! No wonder Christ wants us "to be like little children and come unto Him."

Sunday, January 10, 2010

More Spritual New years resolutions and thoughts! :D

So today at church, I went to a different Sunday School class, I chose to go to Eternal Marriage, but the lesson was on Balancing our Lives. And pretty much talking about Self-reliance(which is the VT lesson this month Ironically enough...), and being able to set our priorities and being able to understand those priorities, creating a balance in Work, School, Friends, Family, and Relationships. The Teacher had us play a game... We were to take off high heels if we had any on and any type of shoe that was anything similar to a high heel... (isn't a High heel a High heel anyways?) and we were to stand on one leg as long as we could throughout the whole class period. I pretty much made it the first 10 minutes then lost my balance... cause we weren't supposed to even let our foot touch the ground or even shuffle our one foot to try to keep balance or even touch the chair in front... I think you get the picture... And also during Sunday School... there was a thought that came to me triggered by a quote that was said. "We may be sent to a failing world, but that doesn't mean we are sent to fail in the World." It got me to think that no matter how many times we feel like we fail, we are able to get ourselves back up and try again! And it's always through the Atonement that we are able to make it through our hard times where we feel like we have failed and don't have any idea what to do!

Any ways! The Church came out with the new personal progress program! So totally excited! Cause, you can Get the Medallion Twice now Even if you finished it while you were in YWs and it also gives mothers a chance to do it with their daughters and those that may have converted after YW age a chance to give it a try! :D it's amazing! I want to be able to finish that this year! :D As well as my other goals that I have spiritually! :D I pretty much got a new booklet and going to start some experiences!


I went to the CES Fireside and it was so amazing!! :D Elder Neil L. Anderson spoke tonight. He talked about the Miraculous Plane Landing in the Hudson River last January that was all over the news... and he related it to our spiritual journey. And he talked about how we need to be our own spiritual captains and that we need to return safely and bring more people along with us. And who do we bring with us? First, we get Married, then we bring our families. The ending quote that he said was the one that hit me the most! And I'll just summarize it because I wasn't able to write the whole thing down... :( " Your spiritual Journey is full of Obstacles, delays and malfunctions. As we go through our journey we are able to fulfill those Obstacles and go through those delays as we make mistakes and repent of those things we've done. But as you keep going through your journey, you will hear your name W/ the Gate still open for you to go through." It really got me thinking! It was really the quote that stood out the most to me! Because, there are times where we feel like we aren't important at all, and we may not feel like we are loved at all by anyone, and really the only people that will truly love us forever are: Our families, Our Heavenly Father and our Friends that stick with us! We will make it through life no matter how many times we feel like we fail. But our job isn't to fail, it's to endure during those times where we feel like we are worthless.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Reddish-Brown w/blonde Highlights

The other day I colored my hair!! This time, I went dark! I did Reddish Brown with Blond Highlights! And let me tell ya! Cute! Cute! Cute! Cute! :D I Like it a lot! It is very different, and still getting used to the fact that I'm not all blond anymore, I'm closer to a red head! ;) Na! I'll always be a Blondie no matter what color I dye it to! Although my only regret is I won't be able to see my natural color again unless I either grow my hair out all the way(which won't look very pretty after a while...) or I color my hair again in a few months to get it as close to my natural color as possible! Who knows What I'm going to do... cause I'm obviously not brave enough to shave it off really... And also, I should have told the Instructor that checked my hair after the girl was done that I wanted a one inch trim not 4 Inches! Cause it's no longer past my shoulders! It's going to take my hair another 6 months to a year to get back to where it was before! :( My hair is at my shoulders! And I'm not very good friends with the blow dryer yet... I'm clueless as to how to style short hair! I only know how to play with long hair... I think people are going to be seeing me with my hair up quite a bit this time around, cause I don't know how to style my hair with the Blow dryer... it looks uneven most of the time... when I do it... so a lot of bad hair days coming your way! ;) LOL




So here is a front View!




Here is another front view with my Hair up!



Top View with my hair up!




And here is the Side view with my hair up!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

New Year's Resolutions

I have some Goals this year that I would very much would like to accomplish!

I'll Start with the most important for me... my Spiritual Goals!

Read my Scriptures Everyday
Actually say my Prayers out loud when I am alone
Write in my Journal at least once a week
Get my Temple Recommend
When I do get my Temple Recommend, I want to visit the Temple once a week
Finally Forgive myself from specific Trials, and Move on!
Learn More of the Gospel, to grow my Testimony, and Bear it at least once a Quarter, and go up from there.
Finish the Book of Mormon by my Birthday in April

My Personal Goals

Start on the Pharmacy Techinician Class
Start on my Tech hours as soon as I get my approved letter to train
Take the Pharmacy Technician National Test As soon as possible after Class ends and Pass it!
Go back to School in the Fall at the earliest and start going towards a degree!
Loose some weight like crazy! And maybe that means that I need to start running! :P So I can feel better about myslef

Learn how to budget my money!

Happy New Year! Welcome 2010!

So, 2009 wasn't the best year, but it was good! Here is a little Over View of the Year!

January

I met Kevin on Jan. 8, 2009 after Institute, our Teacher introduced us and we talked for almost 3 hours that day! It was awesome! We went Bowling that night! :D

I went Ice Skating for the first time, and actually went twice that month! haha! I bruised my Tail bone though, it took forever to Heal too! :P

Kevin and I became a couple on the 21st of January.

I found out that one of my close friends was Pregnant, and I chose to Love and support her the best I could! I think one of the Best Choices I made in 2009!

February


I had my first Concert with the College Orchestra! :D

March


I met Kevin's Mom(Andrea Mathews) for the First time!

I went to Kevin's Choir Concert with Andrea up at Temple Square.

Started to Follow Stefanie Grawe's Blog

April

I Turned 19! And my Parents threw a Surprise Birthday Party for me! I got a few Hats and Flowers! It was a Blast! :D



My Great Grandma Wendel Turned 90 Shortly after my Birthday!

Got a Lap Top from Kevin! hehehe! :D

Found out that my Friend was going to Place her baby fro Adoption and was planning on Surprising the Adoptive Parents that She chose them! :D

May

My Sister Kendra Turned 5 This Year! I can't believe she is 5 years old!



I took my Pharmacy Tech Test and Failed it... and found out that I had to wait 90 Days to take it again! :(

Kevin went to Disney World with his Mom, Brother and Sister in Law for a Week... He Brought me back a Cute Bell Figure made by Jim Shore! I Love it all the Way! :D



And found out I would be going to California with Kevin in July! Woot!

June

My mom's Birthday, I surprised her by cleaning the house!

My parents 21st Anniversary, I babysat while they went on their 3rd annual overnighter to Anniversary Inn at Logan, UT!

Got invited by my Roommate to stay with her at her Apartment!

Went to Idaho for the Robinson 2009 Family Reunion.



July

Went to California for a Week with Kevin!



Kevin and I on Big Thunder Mountain... Stuck!! ;)

End of July, Broke up with Kevin to date around to see if he is the "One". (That was tough!)

August

Moved into my Apartment... and started going to my new Singles/Student Ward.

Took the Pharmacy Test again to only find out that I failed it! :P
And I have to start over!

September

My Brother Turned 16?! What? My Brother can Actually date now!

my hours for the Pharmacy Tech Expired...

My Friend had her Baby, and Placed it to Loving Arms of Wonderful Adoptive Parents! :D

October

I was Sick practically the whole month... It started with the Swine Flu, then I had a lingering Cough for the rest... had an Ibuprofen O.D(that hurt like crazy and it totally was on Accident, I thought I was taking 2 Acetaminophen and 2 Ibuprofen.... Nope!

Celebrated Abbie's 4th Birthday! It was fun! Except, I got Sick again... My Lingering Cough Got worse because of the Exposure to the cold and the Rain, and I was in bed on Sunday! :(

And again... I was a 50's Girl for Halloween!

On Halloween, My Mom and her Sisters told my Grandparents of what they were going to be doing for Their 50th Anniversary! They were So touched and Surprised! :D

Kevin's First Nephew was Born October 14, 2009 early in the Morning!

November


My Grandparent's 50th Anniversary was on the 6th and the Open House dealio was amazing!

My Cousin Jordan and his Wife Stephanie had their baby, on the day of my Grandparent's 50th, they named him Tobias(we all call him Tobi for short)

I went to California with Kevin for Thanksgiving stayed there for 6 Days! I got to meet Carter(Kevin's Nephew).

December

I had 4 Friends that Got Married with in 2 weeks! Lauren Crockett, Mckenzie Pierce, Carmela Castellanos, Emma Swan! (Lauren, Kenzie, and Emma all got Married on the 19th) Carmela's was on the 22nd which Sadly I didn't make it because of the Weather being so bad! :(

Kevin left the Day before his 25th Birthday, and was gone for 3 weeks! Ahh! I about went nuts! But I was able to keep somewhat sane! ;)

Celebrated Christ's Birth! It was really fun this year! :D I didn't get much, but my family got spoiled! And I got spoiled! hehehe! ;) I got 12ish Movies(which I wanted haha! I mainly asked for Movies this year), My Uncle Richard and Aunt Tea Gave me a Netflix Membership Subscription! I got, Purple Pajamas! I got a Wall Flower from Bath and Body works from my Cousin Marlei(that's the nice thing about having a cousin working there, you get stuff that smells good! hehehe! ;) I got a little flower pot and fake flowers from my Roommate! So cute! :D I got(as well as my sisters) a little figurine that is a little girl holding the Birth Flower and the Birthstone is on the Base! So cute! I got a Tinkerbell deck of Cards! From my work ;) I got 2 Smocks that were the wrong color, and the wrong size! All well! I get to switch between the 2 every now and then! I originally Ordered a smock that was the Color Grape, and a Small(in men's), but I got a Burgandy, and Size Medium... Kind of funny, but all well! I'll live with it... I was beginning to think that I should have ordered a neutral Color like Black or Tan, Cause people that Ordered in those colors got their Sizes! All well, I Like my Smocks! They make me feel like I am professional(when I can't really be a professional Pharmacy Clerk... LOL;)

January 2010 so far!

My Friend Jenna Mag. (Shaw) got Married on the 2! It was so much fun! I almost caught the Boutique! haha! It bounced off my palm, and an 8 year old caught it! LOL

Kevin came home on Monday, and I finished the rest of my Christmas yesterday! I got a cute Coat from his mom! A couple Picture Frames with a picture of Kevin and I in both of them! I got a tower of Paper outlined with Purple! hehehe! I got a purple long sleeved shirt, a cute little decoration that says
If Kisses were a Snowflake, I would send you a blizard
Ahh! So cute! I got a pair of Amethyst Ear rings that had a funny description! haha! I laughed when I read it! :D

It says
Amethyst is and uplifting stone. It helps to get energies moving upwards, turning your mind and heart towards spiritual things. It also enhances Psychic abilities, and makes us more sensitive to our higher selves. Amethyst aids in Prayer and Contemplation.
Haha! I can't stop laughing like crazy, I just smile everytime I think about it! :D hehehe!