***WARNING**** GIRL IN A BAD MOOD... JUST LET ME VENT!!! DATING AROUND IS JUST PLAIN HARD!!!******
Gah! I hate these days when I get so moody that I lock myself in my room and not want to talk to anybody... Yeah! Exactly today is one of those days! I'm so stressed out! I don't even know where to begin! So Kevin and I are dating around so that we can have some experience! Yeah... I haven't really been on a date, because I don't get asked out! And I'm too shy, and when I do buckle down and ask someone on a date, they are too busy to go... Bleck! Why do I even try? I HATE DATING!!!! I just want to be done! Anyways, he has a hard time asking girls out... but on Monday, he was introduced to a girl that he was checking out at his FHE... And aparently she has the same personality as I do... that it's confusing him, and he doesn't know what to do now! Gah! I'm pretty much going to leave it up to him for the choosing, cause I'm not going to tell him what to do... one because we aren't together at the moment... and also he knows how to make his own choices! So yeah... and things with her are a splitting image of our relationship! It's so weird! And to tell you the truth I am over reacting way too much and I need to calm down! So yeah! My life is so amazing right now! :P
I'm slowly cooling down, and I'm sorry for venting! I needed to get it off my chest! I know people say that Dating can be an experience of a lifetime before getting married, I had that fun in High School! And to most people that doesn't even count! In High School, there were times where I wished I had a Boyfriend that would Love me for who I was, and someone to cuddle with, someone to talk to, someone to hug! You know what I mean? The other part of me just wanted to have fun with different guys, and It was really fun! I went to every Girls choice dance I could after I turned 16, and to a couple boys choice(only Junior prom was the better one out of all of them Jr. and Sr Home coming, and Sr. Prom felt awkward for me...), and I had fun! I went on a few dates as well... I don't regret being single in High School! And I had fun! I know it sounds like I want to rush into Marriage... That's not the case! I'm just tired of thinking that I won't be asked out and I know I won't! So what's the point of doing it? When Guys won't ask me out at all? I have asked guys out before, but it always looks like that I'm desperate for a date! I'm self caucious about it! And it is driving me nuts! I just want to be done! I'm having senioritis bad with the Dating thing! That in someways can be a bad thing! :(
So yeah... I'm done! I'm sorry that you had to read my ventage! I normally do that on the blog... but I didn't really want to write the ventage down!
2 comments:
Hang in there sweetie, I know that right now it feels so frustrating, and like it will never end but I promise in the end it's worth it. I didn't meet Dusty until I was 22 and a return missionary, I had YEARS of exactly what your talking about so I understand. In the end it's worth it once you find the right person. Be patient, work on you, and the min your NOT looking your prince you will meet :)
Thanks Julia!! :D And you're so welcome!! :D I know it's teaching me a lot of patience! And also, there are days where it feels like I can conquer anything that comes right at me... then other days are like I feel like I can't really go anywhere! :P But that's ok, we live and learn! My Cousin Rebecca put a funny quote on her facebook status! It was so funny! I was with a date and we were laughing our heads off! She said "Someday your prince charming will come. Mine just took a wrong turn and got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for Directions." Oh it was so funny! :D
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