Abortion?! What about your child?

Monday, a Girl came through the drive through, and she was on her phone as I was ringing her out(which is rude and inconsiderate!)she was talking about a friend or someone that she knew(and trust me I did my best to keep myself from over hearing her part of the conversation!) and the one thing I listened to was that this person that she was talking about has had 3 Abortions! 3 Abortions?! Seriously?! You just Murdered your Son/Daughter that could've blessed your life or somebody else's through Adoption?! I just mourned for the 3 little innocent spirits that had to go through that kind of pain! And I felt bad for the person that this particular girl was talking about that chose that decision for her child with out giving it a chance! Don't people realize that once you conceive that baby is a live from that point on it is a growing Cell that shortly starts having a heart beat with a month of being pregnant! You just don't get to hear it till about 12 weeks in! And you say that you're just getting ride of Cells and Tissue? That is very sad!

The reason why I am thinking about this so much is because I am very strongly against Abortion! As well as with hearing that girl talk about it saddens my heart for the 3 spirits that were killed/murdered as well as the mother that will forever the rest of her life will regret that decision, because they will forever wonder what that baby's personality is like what they look like and wonder if they will ever forgive you for the choice you've made when you aborted them? And I hope that someday that you will change and look at life at a better point of view that the common man!

My friend Stefanie put a beautiful and well said post on her blog about Adoption and Abortion! I absolutely loved it and I 100% agree with her! I think that Abortion like I've already said is Cold Blooded murder! The only time I probably would accept it is if a girl was raped... But even then I wouldn't know what to do unless I was in that situation! I wouldn't know even what I'd do if there was some kind of medical issue and I was given the choice to Abort... I don't know what I'd do! But I recommend you going to Stefanie's blog! :D

"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Starting school again! :D

I start School again on Wednesday! I have total mixed feelings about it because I'm going to be busy like crazy! I'm taking 12 credits and doing a payment plan where I'm paying almost $500 dollars a month to my school! I'm a little nervous but confident that I'll make it! It feels right for me to do so cause I know I need to be back in school for at least one more semester before anything big can happen... Whether I end up getting a job with Jet Blue, or I meet someone and end up getting married.

What happened between Chad and I? We are still close friends. I didn't want to make things official that we were dating because he's in the Navy, and I want him to be able to focus on what he's doing in school as well as I'm wanting to have a social life and have more experience with other guys. I still consider Chad as my Best friend and I hope he'll be able to accept that. He's amazing, but the conflict that happened with the balance between me and family wasn't fun. His family is (no offense) really needy and controlling! I don't want to be waiting around the house all the time saying that I'm waiting for my "Boyfriend" to get out of the Navy. No! I'm not a military brat! And I realize that I may end up marrying someone that is in the military, but I've known for a while now that who ever I marry won't be someone that I knew from High School. And I'm always reminded of that! I don't know when I'll meet him, but I look forward to being able to make new friends as I start school again this semester. As well as the fact Chad is in Charlston, SC to finish School and I'm not brave enough to have a long distance relationship... for me that wouldn't be able to last very long if he and I were in a relationship I would go crazy! I like having someone close by and to be able to spend time with when ever I'd like to! :D

I'm also taking like 3 institute classes this semester including one evening institute class! ASL Doctrine and Covenants Brother Wellman who is hard of hearing. :D, Book of Mormon with Brother Hunter on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and Book of Mormon with my favorite Teacher Brother Peterson. I'm taking 2 Orchestra Classes because simply I can't live with out Music and playing my Viola! So I get to play in Symphonic Orchestra and Chamber String Orchestra! And the Audition is to basically to place where I'm going to be sitting. And I'm hoping I can get some help from my friend Eugene that is a great Violist and hope that I'll be able to be his stand partner! It would simply be awesome! :D I'm also taking Math 0950, College Success, and a Career and Major explorment class( thought I signed up for 7 habits for Highly productive people which is now on the waiting list so I'll sign up for it at another time...


"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Collin's Eagle Court of Honor! :D

Collin had his Court of Honor and I got to take pictures during the whole thing! :D hehehe! I wish I had a better camera though! :D Cause mine's getting old and it's getting slow! But I Like my Camera! It's amazing! :D Anyways, it was amazing of what turn out we had considering how bad the weather was yesterday! It was crazy! Brother Gifford, Brother Mangum, Brother Peterson and family, Bishop Rupp, Uncle Kim and Kids, My Grandma and Grandpa Robinson came down from Idaho for this, My Great Grandma Wendel was there as well! Brother and Sister Herbert made it as well! The interesting part was the fact that it was dangerous to drive just a half a block to the church! My parents almost got T-boned and we live pretty much across the street from the church! Crazy! A truck with a Trailer came out of no where(I was at home so this is from my parents and Brother's perspective...)with no lights on. and was pretty close to our family van!


Anyways, Collins Court of Honor went very well and it was awesome! :D I'll put up pictures as well as I have pictures posted on facebook! :D

I'll post my favorites. :D



Part of his display of things! Can you tell he loves the Eagle! :D



His Eagle figurine! :D



Collin's Eagle Knife he got this at a camp out trading post



Dad putting Collin's Eagle pin on! :D



Collin! :D



Dad putting on his Scarf thingy... :D



Collin putting on my mom's Eagle Necklace! :D Love it! :D



I LOVE this picture! I don't know what I did.. but I love it! When I first took it, I thought it was too bright with the flast... but it made it a different look that I can't exactly explain! :D I was really excited with this one! :D



Collin Shaking with one of his Mentors that helped him get his Eagle! :D



Collin with Brother Todd, he conducted the Court of Honor! :D

Congrats Collin on Getting your Eagle! I know you've worked hard on it! And I'm glad you enjoyed times of being a scout even during the frustrating and stressful times! :D LOVE YOU! <3

"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Snow Play!!! :D

Yesterday, Utah got some good snow! Like not kidding good snow for a snowball fight and building snowman! Heck Yes! I always get excited for snow right before Christmas! I Just Love it! After New Years, I want it to go away! :P It just gets old, and I get ready for spring! Anyways! I was really craving to play in it like do snow angels, have a snowball fight, and build a Snowman! So I contacted a couple friends and we met at my house and went to a park close to my house! People that were there were... Chad Erickson, Me, Amanda Fox, Larry Fullenwider, and Ruel St. Clair! Oh it was so much fun! When we arrived to the park, Amanda and I ran into the the field and made snow angels, and then Larry and Chad came and tackled us! And started the Snowball fight! Oh that was fun! I didn't take pictures of that cause I didn't want my camera to get wet and damaged... :P LOL But when we started making the Snowman, I got the camera out! :D hehehe! :D



Larry and Amanda! Amanda didn't want her picture taken with the beanie on her head! ;) haha! It was funny!



Ruel giving me a look.. LOL "Uhh... Excuse me?" LOL



Amanda and Larry Wrestling in the Snow! ;) haha!



Me and Chad having a great time! :D




Me and Amanda! :D Love her like crazy! :D




Me and Chad! :D

It was really fun! I had a blasty blast! :D

"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Twiterpated again!

I'm so twiterpated right now! I'm getting anxious as time gets closer! My Very Good Friend Chad Erickson(not president Erickson in my Stake presidency trust me! I'm smarter than that!) is coming into Utah tonight from South Carolina and I'm going crazy that the only thing that's keeping me busy today is the computer! I don't have any desire to do anything else... although I wouldn't mind hanging out with some friends to keep my mind busy cause I found out that his flight won't come in till midnight! :( Instead of 10 or 10:30! I had a late night last night and I'm not anywhere close to being a night owl! I'm more of a morning person! Always have been! There are times where I can pull an all nighter but I'm totally out of it till after 2 or three in the morning then I'm wide awake... But I can do that every once in a while... doing that consecutively is very tiring! So I won't be able to see him when he comes home! :( But I'll see him in the morning! It's just a matter of when I'll see him! I so hope he got on an earlier flight... I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

Chad Erickson has been a friend of mine since like 1st Grade and have had a crush on him since! We've been best friends since then as well as his Cousin Travis Brady! They've been in my life through thick and thin! Travis is more of a Brother kind of Best Friend... We both know that it won't go anymore than that! We know each other way to well that it wouldn't work out between us! We argue and get along like Brother and Sister, that if we were to get married we'd go to our wits end and it wouldn't be good at all! :( Chad, in some cases he's been the one I'd go to first to vent or say I've done something bad... or whatever it maybe... Chad has always been my Shoulder! Then I'd go to Trav when I've had my head cleared up! haha! Then there's Travis' Cousin(on his Dad's Side) Aaron Powell that I've also had a crush on! But my relationship is different from Trav's and mine relationship... we're really good friends that it also wouldn't go more than that... I would literally drive Aaron Nuts just because of my personality and other traits! He's just a good friend and someone that's nice to have a good converstaion with! :D And it's just fun! Those 3 guys are basically the only guys I trust and always have trusted since I've met them! Now It's harder for anybody to gain my trust just because of experiences that I've had both genders have broken that trust... and sometimes It's tough to believe someone that says "Oh don't worry! You can trust me." I would literally have to see a specific look in their eyes, and their tone of voice to do it... I think it just depends on the situation... I can't just trust anybody I literally have to be friends with them and actually know them! And sadly there are very few people out there that I trust! I don't let people in my bubble or box very easy! I'm just used to people that have been in my box, and always have been there even before I built the wall! Sometimes I miss being a kid where I was able to trust everybody that I knew was in my life and it was grand! After an experience I had over 12 years ago... All of that innocence and Childhood was gone! And I miss it! But I'm forever grateful for the experiences I've gone through! I wouldn't be the person I am today with out them! I'm grateful for the friendships I do have and had in my life!


"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Pictures By Tiffany Russon!

Ok This is going to be a picture blog! The rest are on my facebook! Go look! :D
They were taken in May 2010. But I got the CD of the pictures about a month ago!




































Last one! :D Look at Facebook and look at the rest of the pictures! :D Tiffany is one of my really good friends from High School and happens to be one of those friends that I've kept in touch with in the almost 3 years out of High School! I'm Grateful for our still friendship! :D Love ya Tiff! :D

"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous

Through Heaven's Eyes

Today, I was thinking of what to blog about, and it couldn't exactly come to my mind till just a couple minutes ago. And I can't exactly put in anyway that I can say it bluntly. Thanksgiving was a couple days ago, not only that I'm thankful to be alive and breathing and have a Loving Family and friends in my life to keep me going! This year has been an uplifting year! Because about half of this year I was out of the house learning a lot! I had friends in my ward that called on me to check on how I was doing, and if I needed anything. And they'd call when I was feeling a little homesick. As well as they'd invite me to go out and do things and just have fun! :D




My mom and my siblings Mother's day 2009


My family at my Grandparent's 50th Anniversary


Girls Night Out with People I work with!


Deitrick and Collin Arm Wrestling on my 20th Birthday



Me and Jessica Fratcher



Me and My Friend Larry Fullenwider(Rainbow!)

I'm Grateful for Larry! He is a really good friend of mine that I've been able to get to know while I dated Deitrick! And We're just really good friends, He has helped me so much lately trying to keep me happy and distracted from my thoughts of "Depression" with getting over Deitrick and getting myself to move on in my life! I've extremely happy for Rainbow now that he has a Girlfriend of his own! It's so cute to see how Twitterpated he is! And I happen to be really good friends with his Girlfriend as of quite recently. I met her at Ward Prayer on my Younger Sister's Birthday, Her Name is Amanda Fox! I love her to Death! She is so sweet! And always texts me here to see how my day was! As well as we spend a lot of Girl time together(to Larry's dismay...;) jk). But seriously! I Love those two! Just had to put it out there! :D

Lately I've had a couple people tell of how grateful they are for me! For Listening to them or simply just giving them a smile. A couple weeks ago, I had a lady come into my work and I guess I went to school with a couple of her sons with her oldest in my Graduating class. One day she came in and she told me to keep her sons and her daughter in my prayers because they were struggling a little bit. Also I told her to have hope and she started crying. She said, "My Husband and I are sealed, but he didn't have my kids get baptised." And she also said that she just recently started getting herself back to church. I told her that I was struggling a little bit(won't talk about my struggles yet...)and she told me that she would put my name in the Temple Prayer roll.

A few days later she came through the Drive thru at my work. And she asked if I remembered her(Honestly How could I forget someone that just recently got personal with me the other day... I haven't really had her off my mind since then!), I said yes, she said that she kept her word and put my name in the prayer roll! Oh my gosh I felt so touched! And she also mentioned that it was her first time doing so! Talk about an amazing Lady she is! I hardly knew her sons in School, but knew of them because they worked with the the "LTV"(Lehi Television) at my high school. And she told me that her sons think Highly of me. After she said that I was I guess you can say shocked? I thought How can I make an impact in someone's life if I hardly know them at all? And I thought, Heavenly Father knows me the best out of everybody that knows me, and he has placed people in my life, and he's placed me into other people's life to impact their life in such a way that it may be possitive or Negative and visa versa.

I thought of this Song that's from the Movie "Prince of Egypt" If you haven't seen this movie yet let me explain the part of the movie this song comes from. It's based on the Old Testament Story of Exodus and it's where Moses runs away after "Commiting a Murder" and finds himself in a Dessert with a small tribe of people in Meridia and the Priest of Midian is Jethero, He has I think about 5 Daughters and is Invited to this dinner after Moses helping four of Jethero's Daughters with some Theives. And Right before they start eating Jethero is Thanking everyone that came and Welcoming Moses saying "And we shall also give thanks to this Brave young Man, of Whom we Honor here tonight." Moses, says that "I don't deserve anything not even a thanks. I'm not worth anything"(or something to that extent in the Movie, but you get my point).
Jethro told him "Why you saved Tziporah from Egypt and helped my Daughters witht he Brickens...(Theives)." And starts singing this song! And I Love it like crazy!


Through Heaven's Eyes
Sung by Brian Stokes Mitchell
Movie: Prince of Egypt

[Jethro]
A single thread in a tapestry
Through its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design

And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life

Look at your life through heaven's eyes
Lai-la-lai...

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king
If a man lose ev'rything he owns
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?

So how do you measure the worth of a man
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes

And that's why we share all we have with you
Though there's little to be found
When all you've got is nothing
There's a lot to go around

No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance
And though you never know all the steps
You must learn to join the dance
You must learn to join the dance
Lai-la-lai...

So how do you judge what a man is worth
By what he builds or buys?
You can never see with your eyes on earth
Look through heaven's eyes
Look at your life
Look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes"

Hearing this song always makes me feel so happy because I Love the voice that's singing it is amazing! As well as the line that says "Look at your life through Heaven's eyes" Lifts me up like crazy! I am of Great Worth, A Daughter of our Heavenly Father! And Nobody can bring that down! I'm so grateful for this life, and so grateful for the Atonement! What the heck would I do with out it? No idea! Lost! Probably wouldn't even be here! What else would be there to live for?
"Life is tough but it's even tougher When you're stupid." (Do what works in Life) -Anonymous!