I can honestly say that I'm not a mommy's Girl! :( I don't know why, but when it comes to wanting someone to talk to... My mom isn't the first one I turn to like what I hear other girls say about their moms! :( But I can say that I do Love my mom although there are times that I don't even acknowlege that I do or even act like I Love my Mom. But I do, and I hope she knows that! :D She has done so much for our family, she is a registered nurse, but works as a stay home mom now! And has been that way since I was almost 11 years old! And I can say that things have improved between us with in these past 8 years! I think I really started to bond with her when we did the whole Mother/Daughter Nights when my Dad and my brother would go out for Fathers and Sons camp out, where we'd go Shopping and go out to dinner! Those are the moments I remember most about being with my mom! Just having a good time and just talking about anything! Which is rare between us! :( I don't open up very well with my mom, and sometimes it's hard to express my feelings sometimes, and part of it is with my personality, I don't share what I'm thinking, and if I'm thinking about something, and it is important, all my stress goes towards of how I'm going to say it.. and I really want it to come out the right way! And sometimes it can go for weeks! And it does drive me crazy cause sometimes I just explode and I don't end up saying what I ended up wanting to say any ways... Some times my fear is the reaction, I concentrate so much on the Worse case scenarios rather than the best Case scenarios! :( And it can be very frustrating to me because I can't upright say it! I also like the moments where I am up late talking and visiting with my parents, and this is kind of the type of thing that has been happening since I was in High School! I don't know why I enjoy it or even explain why I enjoy having those moments! I think it is just a time for me to get to know my parents, and have a good time! And I hope my brother will have those type of opportunities! I have no idea how many times I've heard the stories of when my parents first met, got engaged and their first few years of Marriage! Let me tell ya! Some of those stories you could laugh for hours! Being able to just talk to them about anything when it is important! I think there have been a few times where we have stayed up past midnight just talking about random things! And another time was when I got out of High School, that summer, I went to Institute, and come home to rest before going to work, and sometimes it was talking with my mom telling her about what I learned in my classes in institute! And it was the same in the fall semester and Winter semester when I was actually in School! :D Fall semester I decided to go into Music Therapy. The hardest part is... the motivation to do it! I think I just need to research more about it so that I can get excited for it! :D There is only one school here in Utah that has a Music Therapy program and it is one of the best in the country! :D It's something she has always wanted to do, but she went into Nursing because it was the right thing she felt she needed to do for her future! And also didn't hear about Music Therapy till after she finished Nursing! Hopefully I will be able to achieve that! Cause it's something new that I've heard about because one of my friends may major in it! :D
My Daddy! Oh my! I don't even know where to start! I can really say that I am literally a Daddy's Girl! Seriously! When I was born I looked just like him even his hair line! (He doesn't like that fact but I still have it a little just bangs are covering the evidence! ;) Anyways! I was born in Wisconsin, and my Dad was a student at University of Wisconsin Stout, my mom was a Full time Nurse working Night shifts! I slept 14 hours a day so my mom could rest and would wake up pretty much for her to feed me, and get ready for work. And my Dad would have a chance to play with me till it was time for me to go back to bed! You'd probably would wish that you'd have a baby like how I was! My parents say I was a pretty good baby! I was chill and easy going and I'm still that way! haha! ;) Anyways! the picture above is my Dad and me at Graduation! As you can tell my Hair is supper short and you can see the Love my Dad and I have for each other! My mom was out somewhere and had to meet us at the Graduation Ceremony! :( So I didn't get a picture with both my parents and just with my mom just me and her! :( I was pretty sad with that one! After the Ceremony I was hoping to have pictures with some of my friends and have some family pictures... But couldn't find my family and I finally found my mom about a half hour after finally giving back my robe and getting my diploma. My Poor mom was Stressed and Sad because she didn't get to have a picture with me in my Graduation Gown or anything! :( Anyways! I am very close to my Dad! I can turn to him for anything(again when ever I gain the courage to talk). I generally turn to my Dad first then my mom. Sadly if I'm really desperate to talk to someone, I talk to my mom. I know that's a sad fact! :( But seriously! I am a lot like him too! He is a counselor and works at LDSFS(LDS Family Services-PT), and works Full time at the Prison as the SOTP Director(Sex Offender Treatment Program). He says there is never a dull moment! All of his Clients come out of his office with a smile instead of a frown like what they'd have at the beginning of the Session... And hearing about what he does kind of puts a forgiving heart to them! I know why... and I know I can go on for hours talking about it, and you would end up hearing my whole life story of these past almost 10 1/2 years. And you'd probably would hear an ear full too! Cause when there is a motivation/or you have a heart to change, that always comes before the change of behavior! My dad has told me that a few times! My Dad has helped me so many times in my life I can't even explain everything! Both of my Parents have! They know everything that I've been trough! And it has been hard but I've made it through! And I really wouldn't have done it with out both of my parents and my heavenly Parents! I Love Both of my parents! They have supported me through my Piano, Viola, And Swim Team! Even if they didn't make it to some of my Swim meets and Concerts! I felt their support in my heart! :D I Love you MOM AND DAD!!!!!!! :D
My little Brother Collin(ok he's not so little anymore! :( he is 2 inches taller than me now! Dang it! ;), Collin is pretty much 3 1/2 years younger than I am. He Drove me nuts growing up! We'd always argue about the smallest things! It was hilarious! And I became pretty bossy or guess very Passive, and I wasn't very pleasant especially when I entered puberty! haha! Wow! Fun times! anyways! We actually started to bond a little bit more I think when my parents told us that we were going to have a new sibling and that we needed to work on our arguements! And to tell you the truth we hardly argue anymore! We mostly talk about anything! Heck! It's about the girls now! And since he is 16 he can go on dates with those cute Girls he talks about all the time! ;) hehehe! I can be pretty evil sometimes when it comes to teasing him about girls! It's so funny! And so much fun! ;) A couple weeks ago, we celebrated my Grandparents 50th anniversary as you remember me talking about! He kissed me on the cheek as you can see in the picture above! And let me tell ya! I was surprised out of my mind! I almost thought that I was going to have a shocked face in that picture cause that is how surprised I was for that happening! And I wanted Collin to do it again so that I could have a picture in my camera... but he was too embarassed to do it again! :( Dang it! LOL Love ya Collin!! Always will! :D
Kendra! Wow! Let me tell ya! I was almost 13 1/2 years old when my parents told my brother and I that we were going to be Older siblings! And that we didn't find out that Kendra was going to be Kendra MeLisa Robinson till the day she was Born May 5, 2004! Boy that was pretty much one of the best days of my life because part of it was because I was having a hard time in my life and I think Heavenly Father knew that I needed to have some kind of joy even through the hard times and the only way of doing it was answering my prayers and Wishes of having a little sister would come true! Little did I know at the time of how much impact she has made in my life! Kendra is such a cutie! I Love her to Bits! I could just give her little kisses all over! :D She pretty much saved my life! I struggled so much during that year in Jr. High! I had no idea what to do with my life! I didn't know who to turn to... I felt like I didn't have any friends at all! I literally felt alone! Especially where some flash backs from my past were coming back to me and I was still struggling with those memories! On the Day Kendra was Born(of course you know it's on a Spanish/Mexican Holiday Cino de mayo), I remember waking up that day, and hearing the toilet flush and my thoughts were literally. "What? Why is my parent's light on they're never awake when I wake up!" Then I though! "Ahh! Maybe my mom's Water Broke!" Oh I was so excited! I went into their room and saw my mom Sitting so miserably in the chair waiting for my dad. And I still asked it even though I knew it was a no... LOL "Did you water break?" My mom said "No, just having some contractions and the baby maybe coming today!" Oh I was so excited! I was literally skipping everywhere in the house, dancing in the shower, and at school! Oh boy! I couldn't even sit still, or even concentrate in my classes(not even Orchestra! I was so dang excited!) The only class that kept me busy was my Food's Class! haha! We did a Cinco de Mayo feast for those that were taking Spanish! It was pretty much fun! It actually kept me occupied and I was grateful to have my hands doing something other than writing notes, playing Notes, or even just sitting still! LOL ;) Then when it got to the last period of the Day, oh I couldn't wait any longer! I was too excited for anything! I wanted to get out of school go home and wait for my dad to come and pick my Brother and I up to go to the hospital! But, Guess what? haha! I got checked out of school 10 minutes before school ended! I didn't care, I got to leave before everybody in the school and I knew exactly why! My dad was planning on surprising us at the hospital what our new Sibling was! But he spoiled it to Collin. The thing that didn't make me very happy was that one of my friends knew before I even knew what gender my new little sibling! I was going nuts! I was like "Tell me Now!" I can't wait any longer! :D Collin finally told me once we got outside to go towards the Car! grr! Took him long enough! LOL ;) Anyways! We went home to drop off our school things and picked up a project I was working on for my Young Womens Medallion! I made 30 baby hats to give to the hospital where Kendra was born at! It was awesome! I was the first to hold onto Kendra! I remember the first time holding her! She was so tiny and so precious! I Love her to bits! She was sleeping, but it was such a joy to hold her! :D I Love you Kendra! You're so amazing to me! :D <3
Abbie! She is my youngest Sister! And she is also Amazing like crazy and also the other sister that Heavenly father Answered my prayers and wishes from growing up! hehehe! ;) And Collin Jinxed himself for wanting to be the only boy when Kendra was Born! haha! Anyways! Abigail Quinn Robinson was Born on October 24, 2005 (almost 18 months after Kendra was born). That day was the Longest day of my Life! That was the one day where I wished I was in School! Because I would've at least had writing notes and Swim Team to keep my mind busy! haha! I was a sophomore! At that time, I was trying to figure out how to turn my life around because I wanted to make the best out of High school experience wise... and that was one of the reasons of joining swim team! :D I wanted to turn around spiritually mainly though! Because I wasn't sure if I had a testimony in Christ, I had a testimony in Joseph Smith because right before School started that year I participated in the Joseph Smith commemoration Program at BYU in August '05! Oh that was a blast! But I wanted to learn to forgive and get myself to move on from a past experience, and live the way Heavenly Father wanted me to! And the door opened right before Abbie was born! My Seminary Teacher at the time, told my class that we could write him a question letter and he would do his best to respond! And I got his response a couple weeks before Abbie was Born! In that letter he said things that helped me find some peace! And it was gradual to find out what he really meant in the letter in general! Any ways! The day Abbie was born my mom had a Doctor's appointment and they said that if they thought she was ready to have a baby they would induce because my mom was scared that she would deliver in the Car considering the fact of how fast Kendra came out when she was born! And that morning was long in waiting to hear from my parents to see if they were going to be admitted into the hospital or not. My mom and dad(I'm trying to remember) I think Invited my Aunt Nedra to be there for when Abbie came out because Abbie and Aunt Nedra share a Birthday! :D My siblings and I were at my Grandparents house waiting for a call from my Dad saying that Abbie was Born and that he was on his way to come get us! Man! 3 hours literally felt like 3 days! I was like I wish I was in School right now! LOL I think I repeated that phrase in my head like a dozen times before the call finally came! LOL Anyways! When we finally got to the hospital. I remember the first time holding her in the hospital! She had her eyes wide open and she was aware! She looked at me as if she was having a conversation with me! And I heard this voice in my head tell me that "Everything is going to be fine!" Oh my gosh! I felt so much peace and comfort from my Heavenly Father that day! I pretty much cried on the spot and never left my eyes off of Abbie! I felt a little extra bond with Abbie! And I literally felt a hug from Heavenly Father that day! I knew that he Loved me! And he still does! I Love my sisters so much! They make my day every time I hear their voices or see them! :D They are so cute! Even though there are some days where they can drive me nuts! LOL :) But you can't help but Love them like crazy! :D I Love you Abbie! :D
Me and My cute little sisters again! haha! :D I Love this picture! :D
I know I'm embarrassing myself by putting this up! But you can't help but laugh! haha! It was a random moment... where my cousin Marlei decided to take a picture of me! and I did a funny face! And this is what you got! haha! My Mom laughed out loud when she saw it! And I have to admit that it is very funny! LOL ;)
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